Rahul's Temper

I really do not know if people I know would agree with what I am going to share in this space now. It is regarding my temper. I am pretty sure that if I said that my temper is something that people should stay away from, my friends and acquaintances would laugh out loud. Today, I would like to recollect the instances when i got so damn angry that the person at the receiving end turned to tears.

The first instance would be sometime during my schooldays. I was supposed to write something on the black board and my classmates were supposed copy it down. I started writing and this guy kept erasing whatever i wrote. The more I wrote the more happy he was in erasing it. I got so damn pissed that I punched him in the gut and he started crying. I really did not care a damn, but now I wish I could not have punched him.

The second instance when i really got to know how much anger I had was back in college. I had not seen my then gf for days. Then finally am back in the college and all excited abt meeting up with her. As luck would have it, she had some sorta exam the very next day and insisted on studying for it. Me being so me, thought it would be best for her to study rather than goof up the exam. I am at the college with friends, and this guys come along and in the most nonchalant way, "Dude, what's your gf doing in the gallery with that guy?" I could not believe my ears. She was supposed to be studying. Curiosity got the better of me and I went to see her. There i see her sitting and yapping away to glory with her best friend. As I approach she jumps with joy, and me??Am burning with anger. I was so pissed off at her that I turned my bike and sped away like a mad dog. I swear, had anyone come in between the road and my bike that day, he/she would be dead meat.

I would always remember the last time i lost my temper. I did something that I will always regret. I was having a really bad day and to top it, this friend of mine said something which i took in a wrong way. I completely lost my sanity and said things I could never imagine. When i replay the words in my head, I realise that I can be the meanest person in the world. I do not know if I will ever be forgiven for the things that I have said and done in such state of mind. But I sure would like to ask everyone I have hurt inadvertently for forgiveness if possible.

Sayonara...