Help me complete this letter

The letter below is part of a short story. In fact it is one half of it. I am searching for few ideas so that I get a reply to this letter and complete the story. You like what I have written, you hate what I have written, feel free to comment and if possible help me complete the story. So here we go,

"Dear ………….

They say it only takes a day to fall in love, but ages to forget that one person. If truth be told, I am sitting here in my room, contemplating if to agree to this statement or listen to what is left of my heart and deny it out right. I really do not think it is remotely possible for me to forget you whom I loved so deeply, so passionately, with all my heart, and without having realized it.

I have spent the last four years of my life running away from you, running away from the only thing that was truly important to me. I thought I could wash away all the memories that you had given me, but everything was in vain. How stupid of me, now I know. I am drained, tired and beaten. The only hope that I have is to spend whatever time I have in your arms, holding you, feeling the touch of your warm breath on me.

It was foolish of me to have left you during those dark hours, and start on an endeavour that never had an ending. Now I realize that my life started and ended with you. Life has taken me through all the ups, but always with a void deep down within. I never really understood what it was that I missed or craved in life. My arrogance, my ego and narcissistic attributes blinded me beyond my own existence. I was never willing to even turn back the pages of my life and see for once the only entity that was for real, you.

I know that nothing I did can be undone. No apologies, no regrets can ever do any good now. But if there was in fact a wish, then it is to start from the beginning. Now I know that I should have told you what you meant for me. If only I could have told you how much I loved you, and that it was only your love that made me the most important person in the world. I cant imagine how spiteful it would have been for you to have loved me for a lost cause, always standing by me when I was in need of you. If only I could have appreciated you then. I now know that what actually matters the most in a relationship is not your compatibility, but the effort you put and being accepted and appreciated for the same. I ought to have thanked you a million times, for being the best part of my life. I should have told you that I loved you a million times, for only you brought out the best in me. And I have failed you, and I have failed myself without you.

I still remember something that you once told me. You give everyone every chance possible for everything that life has denied you. I am here, on my knees, seeking for that one chance that I denied you. I have stacked a lot of hopes on that, but I am also willing to let all that break if that is what you think is the best for you.

I do not know how life has treated you. Now I want to know everything that has transpired during the last four years of your life. I only wish that life has been kind to you, for if it has not been, then it would the biggest injustice. You are the kindest, considerate, understanding individual I have ever come across. I know I can’t possibly walk into your life all of a sudden and make things the way it was. You may very well be married and happily living with your spouse, I cant imagine that though. If that be the case then I do not want to make life hard for you. I have realized that you are the only reason why I have lived so far, for my redemption begins in your arms.

Hope that maybe one day you will show some mercy on me and forgive me for all my sins. Hope one day you will also realize that I too loved you the way you loved me. I do not want to lose out on you. If you think that my staying out of your life is the kindest of act I can possibly show towards you, then I will accept that with grace and poise. It would be my biggest failure, and yet my biggest victory in life.

Regards

Only yours"